by Tiffany McCardell on October 3, 2022
I never understood why pain brings so much creativity. Pain makes you explore places you have never been and memories you never wanted to remember. You start rehearsing the past and wonder what you could have or should have done differently. The discomfort forces you to increase your knowledge and if you are smart will allow you to make wiser decisions about life.
You spend a lot of time beating yourself up about not establishing boundaries with others and punishing yourself for not leaving sooner. Hindsight will only come after, after the pain, after the decision has been made, after the mistakes have changed the trajectory of your life. Pain just sticks around and lingers, producing the same sad day as before. Pain holds tight to your freedom and keeps you bound-Crippled with regret, no words just tears. Every day looking for relief. Tears about why and tears because I am confident that God has not forgotten me, because He is the One who never leaves the one behind. Praying that this pain is for pruning me and not punishment. Determined to never make the same bad choice again.
Pain lies and tells you this is all life has to offer that this is it and will bully you into believing that there is no relief-But the devil is a liar anything that comes to Kill you Steal from you and Destroy you is the enemy and we know he is the father of lies, (he does not stand in the truth, because there is no truth in him. When he speaks a lie, he speaks from his own resources, for he is a liar and the father of it.” John 8:44 NKJV)
Place your faith and trust in God not in other people, not in social media, not in things created by mankind but God! God is the only one who promises to give you an expected end - Which is joy, peace, comfort, success, help, and encouragement (“I pray that God, the source of hope, will fill you completely with joy and peace because you trust in him. Then you will overflow with confident hope through the power of the Holy Spirit.” Romans 15:13 NLT)
Hope in God will not disappoint but will slay every negative thought you think every negative word that was spoken over you by others and every critic in your life now and to come. Hope is the vehicle that allows you to see
the full picture without denying your reality with toxic positivity.
When I place my hope in God, I’m guaranteed to come out of every situation better, wiser, kinder, and more resilient. I believe the Word of God in Jeremiah 29:11, “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” My pain is to create a better me. If you ask me my purpose, I’ll start with my pain.